I am at a most trying stage in my life at the moment. It feels worse than when my father died. I find myself crying whenever and wherever - at the office, while driving to work or at home. I am past the sadness. Now I cry due to hatred. I feel like I'm at the brink of a nervous breakdown. I am already too depressed. I feel like hurting the person who caused me all this as much as he he has hurt me. I'd like to make a clean break from him, lose myself in another country and start all over again. When it becomes too much, I know that I'll find the courage to do all that.